I haven’t really posted on here unless it’s something that is posted from my IG. So a small recap from my last six months, my daughter became a preteen in January I had my 3rd baby in February, he was a baby bout we named him Jacob. We had complications during birth but he made it, and now he is a healthy six month old. Nathan is my 2nd child he turn 7 years old in June. I turn 29yrs old in July, and it hit me that I’ll be turning 30 next year. And it’s not even about the age, it’s more about that I haven’t accomplished anything that makes me feel amazing about my life. Yes I love my 3 kids and even thought Jacob has been the one from all three to make me have emotional breakdowns every other month.
Here is why, thanks to my in laws and my baby daddy (Yup,baby daddy because after been together for 13 years off and on and two kids I still have no ring nor do I see one in the future) they made Jacob get used to being carried. So now this baby expects me to drop everything and cater just to him. As I should but I also have two other kids, a man and a house full of chores to take care off. When I ask for help I get this lecture about how he works and brings home the money, and I get question of why am I tired and irritated if I don’t do anything. Cleaning, cooking, laundry and taking care of Jacob is doing NOTHING!!!!!
Before getting pregnant with Jacob I was so focus on myself. I had both my older kids in school full time, I had been looking at schools to get my education back on track. I was loosing weight and feeling good about myself. Well that is way gone, I can’t go back to school because I don’t have the support to do that now that Jacob is here. I started to gain weight because I’m eating like crazy. I see food I eat, even if I’m not hungry I just fucking eat. I don’t even remember when was the last time I did my hair and makeup. My eyebrows are ridiculous let’s not even talk about the mustache lol! I left myself go, and I need to catch myself before I harm myself more.
Sometimes I’m having such a stressfull day that I cry, eat and say why? Why did I have another baby, I was ready to go after my dreams and now I’m back to square one. Am I asking for to much when I ask for help with the baby, am I been a baby? I just feel like the worst mother because I am not caring for the older two kids like I should. And I have zero support from the person who is supposed to be my partner in all of this.
Some new makeup goodies for my makeup box. Loving these lipsticks colors! #Makeup #MakeupJunky #Maybelline #ColorSensational #Lipstick (left to right) #TouchableTaupe #UntaintedSpice #EspressoExposed #Love #OkayAdios
Wanted some buffalo shrimps from Hooters but there is no Hooters out here. So I made my own. #HootersCopyCat #BuffaloShrimps #SweetChilli #BuffaloSauce #SweetBabyRays #Testing #iCook #OkayAdios
Soooooo worth the wait! #SimpleDinner #CarneAsada #PicoDeGallo #Tortillas #MiSuegroElGrillMaster
Trying out this #AppleAhhhRita while waiting for the carne asada. Quick read: #Cosmopolitan #CosmoForLatinas #LittleMeTime #ShouldDoMyNails
Goodies from Sinaloa! Machaca for breakfast tomorrow con queso, frijolitos all I need is to learn how to make tortillas de harina. #Sinaloa #Machaca #Queso #Dulces #Mexico #LosBisAbuelosDeMisHijosSonDeSinaloa #Lmao #OkayAdios #MyFriendsAreAwesome
Yes! So excited for what I’m planning….. Oh yea Good Morning World Happy Wednesday!! #Quote #qotd #SteveMaraboli #PuttingOutToTheUniverse
Dinner Time! Quesadillas de carne asada, made with homemade tortillas. #iCook #Quesadillas #TortillaAMano #Masa #CarneAsada #MozzarellaCheese #Fresh #Salsa #AllTheDamnToppings #MexicanCooking #Yummers #OkayAdios
Hadn’t had a green smoothie in a long time…. #Spinach #Banana #Mango #ChiaSeeds #Ice #GreenSmoothie #Yummers
This post was inspired by @tiashorty you inspired me girl!! #NaturalNails #WetNWild #WetCement #PriveteViewing #NailPolish #TheNamesTho #OkayAdios